As the nation “turns its weary” eyes for
leadership, there is none, only a trumpet sound for more violence. An event
that greater Americans would have used to promote healing is becoming another
cudgel in the hands of those who want to divide and anger us more.
I found years ago that apologies at a time like
this are hollow. The only means of obtaining understanding derives from actions
previously taken. All the “I’m with you” claims in the world cannot take you
back to show support when it was needed before now and wasn’t there.
The darkness grows, and I wonder what path I will
take when forced to choose. I don’t think I will join the Legions of Hate,
although they may well be poised to prevail. I have no good feeling toward
them. I have no hate toward them, either. Good people throughout history have
succumbed to their darker angels. It won’t stop. They will always be there, but I don't have to choose to join them.
Indeed, if I tried to cross over
that historical bridge, the leaders of the victorious party would have a name
for me as did the Nazis for those who “came late to the party.” They called them Märzveilchen – "March
Violets." They were the ones who joined the NSDAP after the Reichstag
elections of March 1933. Generally, the "March Violets" were assumed
to join the Party for opportunistic reasons only, and were held in contempt by
the Old Fighters, also called Märzgefallene or "March
casualties."
Mitch McConnell would see through me in a millisecond.
Mitch McConnell would see through me in a millisecond.
I hope I will have the courage to fight. It would
be easy to sit it out. I’m older than those in the higher-priority groups: the
immigrants, minorities, teachers, scientists, same-sexed, and mainline
Christians. I do have one characteristic that could help when the assault-rifle
folks come. I’m what you might call a “liberal with guns,” and I don’t
necessarily fear or respect those who, as Ernest Hemingway described them, get
an erection from the feel of holster leather on their thighs. Besides, I’m a
better shot than most of them. I profited both from growing up in rural Arkansas and, later, from countless hours of practice with
unlimited free ammunition.
If I were religious, therefore, I would pray for the
courage to fight. As it stands, I’ll have to talk myself into it. Our president is helping me do just that.
Late at night I feel a little bad that I’ve had a
full life when there are so many who haven’t and won't. I feel genuine sorrow
for those who will succumb to the purveyors of hate. But then, I didn’t vote
for the bastards.